At times I look at the work of some artists who put forth a message in their edgy and sometimes purposely disturbing art and I fight back the feeling that because my work is not "edgy" perhaps it is not up to par in the art world. (whos art world?) After pondering the thought and kicking my insecurities to the curb I know that edginess is not within me even though there are many issues in the world that disturb me. My problem(?) is that I tend to see many sides of any issue and hesitate to jump on any one train until I inspect all sides. Perhaps that is why I paint what I know is real. Trees are real, the scenery around me is real and nature is real. I want my art to touch people in a way that takes them to a place they actually can trust and understand. I trust trees. They don’t lie or distort facts to suit themselves. They may bend in the wind from time to time but they just are what they are and I like that. That’s my message from my inner being and it keeps me sane in a rather insane world.
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I have been playing around with wooden cradled boards as well as my usual canvas these days. There is something about the way the board feels smooth and resistant under my brush compared to the give and texture of canvas. Many of my canvas works fall short of something I cant quite put my finger on as I paint but the wood support is always exciting. There are times I feel as though I may have an “entity” within myself that is always guiding me one way or another. For some reason this entity loves to paint on wood. I wonder if I am channeling a painter from the days when wood was most available to paint upon? (Did I ever mention I have a very active imagination?) The good thing about this “ entity” is that it is very critical about what I do, sometimes to a fault but its needed because I am pushed to always improve. There is a wonderful Ted Talks on Youtube by Elizabeth Gilbert called “Your elusive creative genius”. Check it out if you have 20 mins to listen. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=86x-u-tz0MA
My latest painting on a wood support "The Shoreline Group" 24x36. It is similar to another painting in the westcoast portfolio, maybe you can spot which one?
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The rain pours outside the studio “tat-tattering” upon my sky lights. “It is a perfect day to paint” I think to myself. Today is a much better day than yesterday. Yesterday I forgot how to paint. All my colors were wrong, or should I say looked wrong to me. Nothing was working. “I HAVE FORGOTTEN HOW TO PAINT AGAIN!” I yelled to the scattering of art supplies in my studio. The white canvases gave me a blank look, the bottles of paint stood motionless and I saw that the cerulean had the blues, the magenta blushed and the yellow as always was just mellow. “Stop what you are doing and come see us tomorrow” I felt they said. So I did.
I walked in at 6:00 am today and remembered as I always do. I am so glad this doesnt happen to me when driving.
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When people drive up our hill these days to visit us they are surprised by the amount of snow on the ground. I guess 400 feet above sea level has something to do with that. I have an ice trail leading to my studio as the snow surface has slightly melted and refrozen more than once. Scattered about the yard are the wild bunny tracks. I try not to think too much about how they will find food but I notice they are eating the birdseed I am putting out beside the house. Everyone is hungry!
I worked in the studio today. I seem to have gone into one of my 'funks" but I know I will come out of it soon. I just have to keep showing up and slogging through the mud. I am sure I have blogged about it before. Us artists are very hard on ourselves.
I have finished a smaller painting (12x24)but am waiting for the right light outdoors to photograph it. I have 3 larger pieces that I am in the last and most difficult stages of, which is why I started the smaller piece....to avoid the other three. I do that often which is one of the problems/perks of being your own boss!
I have sent in my payment for Art! Vancouver. I was in this large show at the Vancouver convention centre last year and decided to give it a go once again. It runs from May 25-28th and I am showing in a larger booth this year. I need to get to work!
Thats about it for now!
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I feel normal again. I have not felt normal for a month now. I think the overwhelming pressure of the holidays affected me in a negative way. I could not paint or even concentrate on my art so I pretty much had to take 3 weeks or so off. Dont get me wrong, we are pretty laid back when it comes to Christmas with its sparkly celebrations compared to many others but just the inundation of the commercialism, expectations and the whole energy just messed with me. I will need to figure out a way next year to make it more meaningful and less stressful. LIke Forest Gump would say...."And thats all I am going to say about that!".
I have a few paintings I was lost in over this last month that came with me over the threshold into 2017. In 2016 they frustrated me and now they excite me. Three are large canvases. I had purchased some larger brushes to deal with covering more space as I have discovered boredom quickly sets in and my "eyes cross" within a large painting when my brushes are too small...(imagine washing a dance floor with a toothbrush then polishing it with a q tip, you get my drift) I purchased a very expensive brush and still have not opened it. I am terrible with my brushes, I get so lost in the act of creativity then forget them wet with paint on a table somewhere in my studio..only to be found hard as rock the next day. You can usually hear my utterances of disgust when I find one wrapped in a paint rag off the the side...as I did this morning.
In 2017 I need to write more about my daily painting escapades. I have been told this so I will try. I do like to write so it shouldnt be too difficult.
The last while I have been listening to "Leaving Time" by Jody Piccoult on an audio cd in the studio. I am down to the very last of the book and here I am today trying to paint, with tears running down my cheeks as the story unfolds in a way I had no idea. The monotone voice of the narrator adding to my sadness...but in a good way I am amazed at how anothers creativity has affected me so. I will try harder to achieve that in my work.
These days my artist within is pushing me once again. It tells me I need to do better and it scoffs at some of my older work that I was so proud of a few years ago. I CAN do better...this I know. This is a good thing. This is how I improve. This is what its all about and this is what I thrive on.
Happy New Year!
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